Well, I am officially on the downward spiral to the realization that I can be a mother of 4 in what could be five weeks. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled for the coming of Anthon. I know he is to come to our family. I also know that he will bring with him many joys.
It is more like the realization that I am already burning my candle at both ends and am not sure how I am going to add another little one who needs me so much. It would be one thing if I didn't work, had family here in the same town, had a maid, but non of those are possible. With Drew being so wrapped up with firefighting, I am literally looking at every detail and wondering how? How am I going to be the mother I need to be? What do you let go when you can't afford to let any of it slip away?
This is where faith really comes in and prayers. I need to constantly remind myself of this aspect.
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when you get that figured out you let me know!!!
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